Fluffy Friday: Fear of Failure
That’s a lot of alliteration.
I had almost forgotten my little birthday present to myself that I have yet to “enjoy”.
My upcoming RKC certification. I got an email from Dragon Door yesterday reminding me of the requirements. Oh yes….those.
Can I confess something?
I’m nervous. I was nervous for the one day HKC certification.
I don’t want ripped hands. I don’t want to wake up day two and not be able to move. But most of all I don’t want to fail. (I’ve foolishly been reading blogs of people who didn’t pass.)
Fear of failure is not a good reason to not try. Fear of failure is not a good reason to not give it your all. Fear of failure, however, is a good reason to pray.
If the certification was tomorrow I would kill myself trying to pass fail the snatch test. I’m not quite ready but I’m holding onto the hope I will be.
I have been training hard on my own and with Doug. I’m feeling my endurance and strength grow. I’ve been teaching others and seeing them get stronger. Why am I not ready? Because I still don’t meet the weight requirements to be able to test with the 12k (26lbs) kettlebell and I can’t snatch the 16K (35lbs) 100 times. However, I did snatch it one time. ONE. TIME. I was so happy you would have thought Thom Yorke had offered Brent and I a private concert. I’m still missing the requirements by 99 reps but I figure if I can do it once I can do it 100…right? Maybe not by August 27, which is why I’m still slowly carrying out Operation Six Pack even if I have been slacking on my food journal. (Seriously, I don’t know how food bloggers do it.)
It’s been interesting to be losing weight for reasons beyond vanity. I feel like a wrestler trying to make a weight class but thankfully I don’t have to touch anyone else’s sweat or wear a singlet. Instead of looking at a pair of jeans that are too tight, I look at a kettlebell that is too heavy. The same goal but an entirely different mindset. I like it.
I like being intentional.
I like having a goal.
I like looking for strength outside of myself.
Have an awesome weekend.
Hugs and High Fives,
Jenn
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I think it’s great that you have a goal outside of looking good. You’ll get there!
I might be one of the few food/fitness bloggers that uses a food journal. I can’t eat everything and not gain some weight. Maybe b/c I’m in my 30s and have kids? Who knows! But yeah, my dirty secret (well, not so secret anymore ha) is that I keep a food journal.
You are going to rock the RKC cert!
Love the alliteration 😉
I have a huge fear of failure with almost EVERYTHING. I’ve found that it can be paralyzing, to the point of being worse than the failure itself. What I’ve learned lately is that avoiding the endeavor does not make the fear go away…it’s there whether I do it or not.
You’re going to do great. Just push through the fear and rock it!
You can do this, Jenn! You’ve done it before, just go back to what you know:)
Oh girl,
I have just been reading your blog for the past hour while at work going…this is me.
I need to own up to my sugar addiction and get off it already. I’m resisting big time. but i need to be free of the insanity!!!!
Thank you for your honesty, I need a big dose of honesty right about now!
I every time spent my half an hour to read this web site’s articles or reviews everyday along with a mug of coffee.
Best of luck on Operation 6-pack and of course your test! Wow that is exciting and I know you’re going to succeed
It’s so good to have a goal… and to put yourself out there… wanted to share a blog of a friend that recently wrote about risk and failure. It’s a good read. http://gosonja.com/index.php/risk-with-a-side-of-failure/
I do have to wear a singlet for power lifting and it stinks. I HATE it. I call it a onesie because it makes it slightly more fun, but it’s still very uncomfortable…..and unflattering.
I love that a powerlifter reads my blog! Your strength makes me feel even stronger! 😀
I enjoy what you guys tend to be up too. This type of clever work and reporting! Keep up the awesome works guys I’ve added you guys to my personal blogroll.